The “simple” surgery

[January 7, 2015 – I decided to post this again because my sister is having the same surgery today and I am very worried about her. ]

When I was told I had to have my gallbladder removed, I was told it was THE surgery to have. It was so simple and safe. It turns out they were very wrong. It wasn’t safe or simple.

An ultrasound of my gall bladder showed sludge in my gall bladder. I was sent to a surgeon by my primary doctor. He decided I should have the surgery. They scheduled the surgery for February 26th. While we were doing the paperwork with the nurse, she said this is the surgery to have. It is very simple and easy to recover from.

I had my surgery on Tuesday, February 26, 2008. They sent me home after I spent a few hours in short stay unit. I had the normal soreness from a surgery. I woke up later that night in extreme pain. It was pain so bad that I had to bite down on something to keep from screaming.

I went to the emergency room on Wednesday, February 27, 2008. When I got to the ER, they wheeled me right back into a room. They gave me Dilaudid through an IV. It started to work but then a short time later I was in extreme pain again. The doctor (or his assistant) came in and said that they had called the surgeon and told him about my treatment and they determined that the pain I had was too severe and they wanted to admit me to the hospital for observation.

On Thursday, February 28, 2008, At about 5:30 am, a nurse came in to check my vitals. She took my temperature and said something under her breath and ran out of the room. I don’t remember much after that because I was in so much pain. They said they couldn’t give me any more painkillers until I had some tests. They did several tests on me and while they did that I wasn’t allowed any painkillers.

Friday February 29, 2008 – I woke up in a room with wires stuck on me and an oxygen device stuck in my nose. I leaned up trying to see where I was. I looked over and my dad was sound asleep in a recliner. I was very confused. Was there something they were hiding from me? Did I almost die? Did one of the tests show I had cancer or something? My dad finally woke up and I told him I was confused and asked how I ended up here. He said I got much worse and they put me in intensive care. My heartrate was 157 and fever was 102. I didn’t look good. The doctor who did the endoscopy had put me in ICU for closer observation. A nurse came to check on me and asked what my pain level was. I told her I was not in any pain. Dad said, “That is the first time I have heard her say she didn’t need pain medicine.” During the endoscopy, it showed I had a leak and they put in a stent in my bile duct.

I was finally released on Saturday morning.

In March 2008, I was diagnosed with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder due to all of the events in the hospital. I had to lay in a hospital bed in extreme pain for days until they figured out what was wrong. I am also suffering from an eating disorder. I lost a lot of weight during all this and started to have a problem with it. I had this horrible thing that happened to me and what I got from it was the large amount of weight loss. I thought it was a good thing so I ended up losing more and I ended up dangerously thin. To this day, I am still struggling with everything. Photography is a great help. You can go into this other world and take pictures for hours and forget about all that is troubling you. I have been teaching myself photography because photography school is very expensive. I would love to photograph for National Geographic someday.

It is still hard to talk about. I did manage to post my story on a blog online and someone wrote and said I helped her feel less alone and weird by knowing that someone else out there went through something similar.

To Read Jar : a fun way to decide what book to read

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I found this idea on Pinterest and Instagram. If you search ” tbr jar ” you can see examples.

If you are like me, you have 300+ books on your “to read” list on Good Reads and you have trouble deciding what book to read.

The things you need:

  • Jar
  • Your reading list
  • Scissors
  • Pen
  • Paper
  • Materials to decorate the outside

1. You can use any type of jar you want. I picked a clear jar so I can see inside. I bought my jar at Target for $1.99 where I also found some labels to label my jar “The Book Jar”  but you can decorate your jar any way you like.

2. First you will need to cut the paper to the desired size. I picked colored paper so I could see them inside the jar.

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3.  Next write down the titles of books you want to read onto the pieces of paper. I picked 20 titles from my Good Reads list.




4. Place all of the pieces of papers into the jar and shake.

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I made a list of all of the books I put in the jar to avoid duplicates. For the books that are in a series, I just wrote down the title of the first book. There is something I cannot decide though. If I pick a book that is a series, do I just read that book? Or do I finish the series before I pick from the jar again?

Here is a list of my books to read:

  1. Until the next time by Kevin Fox
  2. Clockwork Angel (The Infernal Devices, #1) by Cassandra Clare
  3. Death by Darjeeling (A Tea Shop Mystery #1) by Laura Childs
  4. The City of Ember (Book of Ember #1) by Jeanne DuPrau
  5. Keepsake Crimes (A Scrapbooking Mystery #1) by Laura Childs
  6. Slavery Inc. : the untold story of international sex trafficking by Lydia Cacho
  7. I Heart New York by Lindsey Keik
  8. Hidden girl : the true story of a modern- day child slave by Shyima Hall
  9. Dear nobody : the true diary of Mary Rose by Mary Rose
  10. The girl who was supposed to die by April Henry
  11. Breakfast served anytime by Sarah Combs
  12. What I thought was true by Huntley Fitzpatrick
  13. The Raft by S.A. Bodeem
  14. Girl Stolen by April Henry
  15.  Summer of the Wolves by Polly Carlson-Voiles
  16. Murder Past Due (Cat in the Stacks Mystery, #1) by Miranda James
  17. Shiver (The Wolves of Mercy Falls #1) by Maggie Stiefvater
  18. Walk Two Moons by Sharon Creech
  19. All These Things I’ve Done (Birthright #1) by Gabrielle Zevin
  20. The wolf gift by Anne Rice




The thing that nobody talks about

I had something happen to me long ago. Something I have never told a soul, not even my family or friends. I wanted to tell my story in case it would help others.

If you have triggers about rape or sexual assault, please don’t read any further:










I was assaulted. I remember being taken behind a building where I was held down by one male while another pulled down my jeans and put his fingers inside me. It was so painful. I can’t remember if it went any further than that. The counselor I told that even if there was no intercourse what happened to me is considered rape or sexual assault. She told me how the same exact thing happened to a college student and the men involved went to prison. I told her that I had tried to report it but no one believed me. I told her I felt responsible to the other people these men possibly attacked after me since I didn’t report it. She said it was their fault not mine.

I still regret never reporting. I basically let them get away with it.

Daily Prompt: Fast Forward

If you could fast forward to a specific date in the future, when would it be? – from

March 20, 2014 – First day of Spring. I like Spring. The temperature is warm but not hot like summer. My favorite thing to do in the Spring is go to the zoo.


I always like March because every year from 2005 – 2010 we traveled to Memphis, TN.


Gibson Guitar Factory in Memphis, TN


Beale Street

I miss going to Memphis. We probably won’t get to go there again. Our trips were to see my Dad and Memphis but he moved away many years ago and he is retiring in March. He will no longer have a need to take trips there.

Fado Irish Pub

We were shopping at Easton Town Center and decided to try Fado Irish Pub. Since I would love to visit Ireland someday, I have always wanted to check this place out. They are located at 4022 Townsfair Way Columbus, OH 43219 in Easton Town Center across the street from Barnes and Noble and Easton Hilton.

Fish and Chips is amazing. I ordered a half order and it was plenty for me.

I hope to visit them again soon.

For more information on Fado Irish Pub, visit :

Places in Ireland I would like to visit


Cliffs of Moher from Wikimedia Commons


City of Cork from Wikimedia Commons

Cities in Ireland I would like to visit some day:

  • Killarney
  • Galway
  • Cork
  • Dublin

Places I would like to go while in Ireland:

  • Cliffs of Moher
  • Giant’s Causeway

I am sure this list will get longer. I doubt I could ever go since it is in the $1,000s to fly there. But it is still fun to dream.